Today is our 3rd anniversary. I woke up and went to the gym did my normal thing NROL Fat Loss I B and ran for 48 minutes. Finished 6 miles. My wife thinks that I forgot to go to the mall yesterday after work so she thinks I will be running around today….meanwhile I have bought her a nice vase (modern list for 3rd) brought it to a flower store and they are delivering it to her shortly. Inside I have made a card and an envelope and asked her to meet me for lunch at a restaurant she likes, there will be an appetizer there waiting for us and after lunch she does not know but I have booked her a manicure, pedicure & massage. Hopefully this goes over well and she can relax and doesn’t worry about how much it costs or something like that.
On another note I am having a hard time keeping my mind straight at the gym. For some reason when I am exercising emotions about the fire are starting to flow. I know I need to suck it up but sometimes that is easier said then done. I was first on scene and it was my job to save him. I hope that with time the thoughts and feelings will pass.